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I thought, for a moment, in a seemingly big-picture sort of way, about how life is just day after day of meaningless action, which leads to nothing but death. In my mind I pictured a sort of chart of my life out in front of me. Day-night-day-night-day-night-day. But it then occurred to me that this supposedly big-picture point of view is really nothing but a retreat back into a very small mind

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Only senses exist. Sense is the wrong word. Sense implies a sensor. This is wrong. Nobody is doing the sensing, because the supposed sensor is nothing but senses. Sight, sound, and all the rest are just the splitting of suchness. Thou art that!

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What is the meaning of life? What is the meaning of meaning? Is there a meaning? If there is, who decides what that meaning is? These are questions that have been pondered by philosophers for millennia, and they are some of the most important questions a human being can ask. I have also contemplated these questions, and what follows is my best attempt at some answers.Meaning is to be found purely

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The Dover, Pennsylvania school board recently adopted a policy requiring that high school science teachers teaching evolution tell their students that evolutionary theory, a theory that has been shown to explain the development of life time and time again, is flawed, and that intelligent design is a valid alternative. The ACLU (American Civil Liberties Union), along with the AUSCS (Americans

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--Socrates (quoted by Plato in Apology)I think what Socrates is saying here is that on some basic level, to be alive, to be human, is to actively examine life. If you don't think about how you want to live, then you give up those decisions to others. You become like an animal, or even a machine, in that you have no self, no agency acting independently. Socrates sees this sense of an

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Life kills us all and so some try to avoid it. Those people live dead.

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I've been thinking about the teachers I have whose classes I enjoy, and whose classes I dread. I think I've found a pattern. There are really two types of student-teacher relationships. One, I guess I could simply call, the student-teacher relationship. That is, the relationship where the teacher teaches, and the student learns. The teacher sees his or her role as imparting information onto the

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I wrote this the other night. Its not meant to be poetry. Just some thoughts I wrote down: self consciousness bennifical or not bennificial advantagious or disadvantagious control our beheavior like god the places where learning becomes learning are where things are taught there you see, the meaning is in the message emptiness You see a joke instantly in one sounded laugh I think I intended

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God speaks to no man, but he who sees God in himself, speaks for God.

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Do the Meditation RockAllen GinsbergIf you want to learn how to meditateI’ll tell you now ’cause it’s never too lateI’ll tell you how ’cause I can’t waitit’s just that great that it’s never too lateIf you are an old fraud like meor a lama who lives in EternityThe first thing you do when you meditateis keep your spine your backbone straightSit yourself down on a pillow on the groundor sit in a

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I see it perfectly clearly. Consider the laws of physics. Everything in the universe holds to them. I certainly do. BUT! What defines the laws of physics? It is clearly what I do that defines them. It is what everything does but me included. So then I am God! So is everyone else of course but really its ME! I've put this into words before but I've never actually felt it until now. I was reading

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You can not remove things from the universe. Any one thing necessitates the existence of everything else. I look at the black bored. If it wasn't there all the information about it would still exist in the universe. If it was removed, its reflection would still exist on my eyes. Conversely, if everything in the universe was removed except the black board, the changing state of it would give all

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I was listening to a Terry Riley recording called Across the Lake of the Ancient Word. Now Terry Riley is an amazing minimalist composer and keyboardist who incorporate the music theory of the great sitar players of India into his music, but they sound nothing alike. He just has a way of expanding your consciousness like great sitar does. So I was listening to this recording with big headphones

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A friend said an interesting thing to me. "Raking leaves is pointless," he said, "because why should we judge the leaves as bad, and decide we must move them." I think its an interesting point, but I think its a self defeating one, that none the less leads to good insight. If picking up leaves is judged to be pointless, isn't that judgment itself pointless? Is there really any distinction? But

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I think I understand better now. My consciousness is really just another part of the energy dance. Just like the sky is blue I view the world from here. I am here. There's no reason for it, it just happens.

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Intellectually, I know that my ego simply does not exist, but since I was very young I have always wondered why I was born into this body, and not some other one. Now of course I am my body, so the question doesn't make sense, but I still want to know the answer. I think about how I am the universe viewing itself from this perticular position, and I wonder why I am not viewing it from some other

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What kind of a phrase is control your self? We use it all the time but it doesn't make any sense at all. If I am controlling my self then what am I that is controling my self? Isn't it my self? So my self is controlling it self? Then there isn't really any controlling at all is there? Its just doing what it does and there's nothing controlling anything else.

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I saw a play tonight called 4.48 Psychosis, but what the play was isn't the important thing. The play had alot of long silances in it. During the silances I felt like i just wanted to scream. I could barely control my self. I was really worried I might do it because I knew I couldn't really control what I did. Luckily, it didn't happen.

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Words really are empty. All we do is play with words in our minds. Sure, in theory, words represent experiences we have. But when I hear most words in a sentence I don't form a picture in my mind of what the word means. I just hear the words and thats the meaning, just the words. I react emotionally to these words. It really is amazing.

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I saw a movie called "What The Bleep" tonight and now im not so sure I believe my last post. maybe the reason I can't put my finger on what it feels like to make a choice is because im doing it all the time, so I know nothing to contrast it to. maybe I am always making choices about what to experience. The movie talks about how in quantum physics, when you haven't experienced something it

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People talk about free will a lot and how it feels like they can make their own decisions and how can that be with what we know about physics. I think the first premise is wrong. It doesn't feel like we can make our own decisions. Its easy to tell this, just try to think of what it feels like to make a choice. You don't know do you? You can't even figure out when the choice is being made. After

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Inspired by Rock and Roll by The Velvet Underground: It's always now. When somebody talks, one only hears what they are saying one instant at a time but we manage to understand things a word at a time. Not only that but we hear things one word at a time. At least it feels that way. It's not a normal kind of memory that makes this possible. We don't play it back in our minds to understand. It's

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Scientists try to get as much information as they can about the world around them. What they fail to realize is that its all right in front of them, hiding out in the open. The most direct way to know everything about the universe is to just watch what's going on. Every piece of information we can know has its own spot in our consciousness. Someone could use a computer to calculate exactly what

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The fact that a drug can effect the decisions "I" make seems to be evidence of the nonexistence of the ego. If a drug affects my choices then they really aren't choices at all.

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"Reality" is just like a memory chip storing data. It is a set of data, a matrix. Our senses read from it and our brains take it and make it a part of themselves. That is, it changes state to match it. This could be a memory chip, or something more complicated like in The Matrix, or more probobly it is just what we see. But then really that data set is how we see it. If we see one

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Why do we think the chances of the universe producing something as orderly as us is improbable? Our idea of sense and order is skewed by the fact that we are the ones doing the sensing. Sitting here throwing a ball up in the air and then catching it, I realize that it only seems to be a sensical action because I do it. If what existed in the universe looked completely different and did things

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Things can have 2 causes?  But there is only one billiard ball...but things have many causes.  infinitely many!  So many going back it includes the billiard ball it self.  "Time Is Like Acid" comes to mind.  like every moment one looks at a face it is new.  So its like that for the billiard ball.

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Slightly high: "Who digs Los Angeles is Las Angeles!" He who experiences something becomes that thing.  But not in a passive way.  He digs it!  He does what it is doing.

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High: "If the good lord had intended us to walk, he wouldn't have invented roller skates." If something happens it is the "will" of the universe, the Tao, whatever you want to call it.  Everything is a part of it.  It is the path from which there is no coming or going.  Thus, nothing that happens can be looked down upon (except of course that the looking down is part of what can't be looked

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Stoned:   A notion is not just an idea.  Its a notion.  There is something I can't put into words that differentiates them.  I can't say what.  Its in the brain.  Unconscious?  But I am conscious of it.  Like the words are logs surrounded by water and the water guides the words into their proper meanings in the brain.   What are the chances that everybody's waterways are the same?

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Mabye the illusion of choice comes from knowing exactly what "choice" one is going to make.

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Consciousness is the whole universe. The things a person does are the actions of the entire universe. Consciousness is the expression of the influence of the whole universe. After death the universe goes on, therefore so does consciousness. "I" am what the whole universe is doing. Neurons fire as the result external stimuli. It is the external universe that controls it all, therefore it is

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Written while stoned and listening to Jimi Hendrix: Everything you sense is a thing you did, "caused," therefore they are dancing with you, they are one with you. Jimi's music is one with me because I'm listening to it. I played it. It's one with me.  I groove with it. So it is with the universe, the Tao! Jimi Plays and listens at the same time. Which does he dance to? Which does he dance with

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